lonelyzentai

Hi, so awhile ago a bunch of my deviations were removed from DA because they got more strict about content after the fact. That's fine, I'm over it. But I decided to continue sending out the deleted deviations via email; partly because I couldn't find a reliable file hosting service, and partly because I thought it'd be cool to interact with the people who were interested in the stories. It was fine for awhile but eventually the emails became a lot less personal and just "hi gimme files". It was hard for me to keep up with sending the files on time, and some people ended up waiting months before hearing back from me. It's just no longer very fun to have to keep on keeping up with this. So now I wanna try something different. Discord was always around for me but it was never something I really got into. But since then I've found discord being used to disseminate files for things like mods and apps. Small communities form around them and files seem to stay online in perpetuity. It

It really sucks. I've been writing and rewriting the first two lines of this story for the past 3 hours. I know how it goes... but like, in broad strokes. I know what's supposed to happen but the little details are killing me. It's just one of those days, everything is bland and tasteless. I'm uninspired. There's just no mood to do it. I've written this story before. Twice. Both times I hated it enough to shove it into the depths of my personal writing folder. Okay, 'hate' is a strong word. I just knew that the writing wasn't living up to the potential of the story. What happened to the days where the words just flowed out of my brain like wine? Now I keep overthinking everything, over-engineering it. How many times must you rewrite a sentence to have it stop sounding soul-crushingly boring? Why can't I just go on to the next sentence? How do I get there from here? Why did the story just stop exciting me?